Just Because

I post because I can.

Ever have so much stuff on your mind you can't think straight?

That's what's going on in my head so today I'm just going to ramble (like I do most times).

The powers that be at my job decided to give me one day off during the week, today.

Decided to take the children to Kennywood, a local amusement park. Getting ready to roll out in a few hours. My son wants me to ride roller coasters with him. I can't do it.

I use to love roller coasters. Couldn't wait to get to the park and jump on one. Now the thought of one makes my head spin.

I am however looking forward to the drop ride (forgot the name). It takes you up in the air then drops you and slows before getting to the bottom.

Nothing like being drop and watching your soul jump out your mouth.

I love that ride but, I only do it once a year.

I guess it is my facing my fears moment.

I am terrified of heights. Want to see me freak out? (the am about to go crazy kind not the showing my porn star skills kind. LOL)

Put me on a bridge.

Had to walk across one in the winter on the day of St. Patrick's Day Parade. Because the buses couldn't come through town. (I forgot it was the day of that parade) Well, St. Patrick's Day equals drunk fools. And they were on that bridge and I was so scared I started crying. My son is holding my hand. My daughter (who was also scared) is holding the other. It was so funny (now).

The other fear is death. Actually, I am not scared of death. I am going to post my wishes for my burial one day. Yes, I have it written down. And that is so morbid. It isn't actual arrangements. It is what I want the day to be like. I was actually inspired by a video I watched one day.

What I am scared of is leaving my children behind while they are still young.

I would like to be here to watch them grow up.

Enough of that.

Off to get ready for a day of rides, high priced food, cotton candy, fun, and great memories.